Merit

Margaret V.Doran

The time has come to face my fears
to face them down
and live by faith
still, a small voice within me asks,
        “What if you fail . . . again?”

My life seems to be a connecting string
        of failures
as a wife, mother, housekeeper, teacher, poet
        and now, employee
the list is probably endless
since I am unable to find a single
        success
This is a great fear:
        to put my family at risk and fail

I found my voice
that was lost to me for two years
and that small voice asks,
        “What if you loose it again?”

That is my biggest fear of all
for even as my poetry failed
        within the world
in my heart I believed it had merit
        . . . was valuable
If I should loose it again,
I think I would be unable to find merit
        in myself.

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Updated March 13, 2005
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